Muscle wilting meltdown, air gulping short of oxygen feeling, brain blood vessels flayed on a laundry line in the wind, metal rods in the back of head . . . someone crushing your ribcage, limbs giving out, mesh bag constricting head, 'pingers': those first small headaches that warn of bigger headaches, 'back of head clamp' . . . headache, increased gravity feeling, being pushed backward into be...